Wednesday, February 3, 2016

Little Boxes

Something about me, you may or may not know: I’m a huge crafter. I looooooove making stuff. I also sell the stuff I make, and earn decent money doing it. Nothing amazing, but my crafting obsession has saved me in a  financial tight spot more than once. I’ve sold hair bows, crocheted headbands, mini top hats (that’s my beautiful sister in the photo – the one who made the amazing Blood Crave trailer), I have also made and sold crocheted My Little Pony Hats and other yarny good things.

I have tried quilting, sewing, knitting, embroidery, textile design . . . basically name the craft and I’m sure I’ve tried it. Or at least pinned a bunch of stuff about it on Pinterest so when I inevitably decide I want a go, I’m prepared with tutorials and tips from the greats. I’m currently learning leather working, which has been great fun and I can’t wait to open my new shop and start (hopefully) making some real money.

Well what about writing, you ask?

You see, authoring doesn’t usually equal a steady income, especially if you’re not a bestseller of some sort or a writer with a huge following that sells lots of books, merchandise and get’s paid to do blogs and appearances and stuff.

I’m not one of those authors. I don’t even really want to be. I don’t like fame, attention, interviews where they ask the same stupid questions, or things of that sort. I don’t like the idea that money is the goal of my writing.

I’m sure you’ve heard this before. Best-selling authors up there like I don’t do it for the money, I do it for the art.

Yah. Okay. You go right ahead with that. Enjoy your movie rights advance.

It’s a bit different for me. I used to have dreams of making BOTM a major motion picture. I used to even create Pinterest boards with my ideal BOTM movie cast (no, I’m not showing it to you, omg the mortification), back when I thought the whole world would love my little book as much as I did.

I don’t want that stuff anymore. I don’t want BOTM t-shirts and Lucas Barbie dolls or anything like that.

I just want to say something with my writing. It doesn’t have to be something profound or deep, I just want people to be touched by what I write, changed in some small way. If I can do that for even one person out there, I know my writing will have been a success.

Fame and fortune not required.

Which brings me to my earlier point: authoring doesn’t equal a steady paycheck. I know that I will probably never achieve full-time writerly status, and that if I do, it won’t be for a very long time. I just have too much work to do on my writing chops to even hope for that right now.

But I’m a single mom now. And I need a steady income. I have three frickin kids here, people, and one of them is too young for me to hold a regular 9-5. I’d end up losing money if I worked, because I’d have to pay upward of a grand a month JUST to put him in daycare so I could work.

Silly, huh? Adulting is awesome.

That, kids, is why you don’t quit college. Never. Ever. No matter what. Stick with it till it’s done. Otherwise you end up working at Sephora or Barnes and Noble for $8 an hour like I did. (Actually, Sephora wasn’t so bad, I got LOTS of free makeup).

Thank God, I’m a crafty lady. As I said, I sell my crafts online, which has allowed me to support myself and my kids to some extent. When I got divorced, my online shops, TOPstitches and DHD, became more important than ever. They were now my sole source of income.

So, you may wonder why I’m talking about that stuff here, on my writing blog. Well, it’s because I’m tired of compartmentalizing my life. I’m tired of separating myself into neat little boxes for your viewing pleasure. I don’t want you to think I’m this two-dimensional person anymore. People who visit my TOPstitches blog (which is woefully empty) would believe all I do is crochet weird little hats. People here on my author blog would think: all she does is try to write stuff.

Well, I do both. And I do more than those two things. I am a three-dimensional person with many interests and passions and I’m tired of compartmentalizing them to please other people. From now on, this will be my main blog, where I will write about whatever tickles my fancy. As I said when I came back from my hiatus: things are going to change around here. But change is good. And this place is going to get more interesting, I promise you that.

Furthermore, it’s exhausting trying to have dedicated web platforms for each and every one of my interests. I’ve started and stopped SO MANY blogs, facebook pages and Etsy shops in an attempt to keep everything separate. It’s almost like I was hiding parts of myself from everyone, and I’m not sure why I was doing it.

Maybe it’s my OCD tendencies. I don’t like when food touches on my plate, when colors run on a pallette, or when things are mixed up in general. So maybe, I was attempting to keep my two worlds separated because it just seemed . . . simpler somehow. Cleaner.

But ultimately, it contributed to me losing myself there for a while. I’m not going to lie or sneak or omit parts of my life on MY blog just for the sake of conformity. Not anymore, anyway.

So there you go, Internet. That’s me. I write and I craft and I sell things and I talk about them ALL IN ONE PLACE. Here. In bloglandia.

This isn’t a marketing scheme, a plug for my businesses, or anything manipulative like that, I’m honestly just ready to show everyone me, and not feel ashamed or scared that you won’t like what you see. None of this is for you anyway. It’s for me, and I’m sharing with you.

Sharing is caring, people.

So it’s that time again, Flash Fiction Friday is coming up again and it’s time to start sifting through the interwebs for things to write about. As always, feel free to join me on Pinterest to add things to my Flash Fiction board. Just message me there (JenKcreates) and I’ll invite you to the board where you can pin things you’d like to see me write a short story about.

Join me, don't join me. It's a free country. Mostly. The choice is yours! I however, don't have a choice. I'll be there, hunting for story kernels, and I'll be back to share with you what I write.

4 comments:

  1. I LOVE this. I do the same thing, even my online folders have subfolders, its nuts! I completely understand where you are coming from. My husband totaled our second vehicle and is out of a job so I'm scrambling. Working part time and crafting and building in my offtime. Yarn, glass, woodworking, you name it I've dabbled.

    I consider myself a jack of all trades an an ace of none.

    Anyway enough from me. I love seeing all facets of you of a person. It makes it that much more enjoyable to watch you grow as a multi-talented artist! I can't wait to see more of you!

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  2. Hey Britt, thanks for sharing! It made me smile to know I'm not the only weirdo who feels the need to hyper-organize everything. Somehow it's soothing, isn't it? Thanks for the kind words, you're awesome!

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  3. I am a single mom of 4 kids and I know first hand how hard it is to reach for your personal goals when you have little monsters pulling on your coat tails. (Regardless of how cute said monsters are... It is still difficult to juggle your life's dreams and your life's responsibilities). I've read some of your blogs and noticed you have an inner bitch monolog too... LOL well, beat that bitch down!you created her, so you can destroy her!! And just so you know.... Had you maybe had better publishers or agents... You could definitely be another twilight sensation. BOTM was just as good if not better!! So finish whatever you have to to get those two books published. Don't take "no" for an answer... Keep going, you'll get where you need to be, head held high. Something my mom used to say... "All is gift" everything you go through is a gift because it shapes you into a better, stronger, and smarter version of yourself.
    I'll be looking out for BOTM 3!!
    Thanks for your first two books!!
    Amanda Benson~

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  4. I am a single mom of 4 kids and I know first hand how hard it is to reach for your personal goals when you have little monsters pulling on your coat tails. (Regardless of how cute said monsters are... It is still difficult to juggle your life's dreams and your life's responsibilities). I've read some of your blogs and noticed you have an inner bitch monolog too... LOL well, beat that bitch down!you created her, so you can destroy her!! And just so you know.... Had you maybe had better publishers or agents... You could definitely be another twilight sensation. BOTM was just as good if not better!! So finish whatever you have to to get those two books published. Don't take "no" for an answer... Keep going, you'll get where you need to be, head held high. Something my mom used to say... "All is gift" everything you go through is a gift because it shapes you into a better, stronger, and smarter version of yourself.
    I'll be looking out for BOTM 3!!
    Thanks for your first two books!!
    Amanda Benson~

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